XO: Fall Out Boy

The summer is almost here and it's got me thinking. Mostly about how I'm gonna have time to breathe between work and school during June. But also about my extra-curriculars.

Do I really need to go out and get drunk? Do I really need to accidentally kiss a guy? Probably not. But more and more I see the possibility of this happening. I'm messed up enough already this semester, but I feel like I've only hit the tip of the iceberg. The part of me that wants to be like all the people I used to hang out with is almost overwhelming.

So stay tuned, folks. I'm sure I'll have some stories to tell. I'm sure I'll have some scars to repair.

To the love,

I left my conscience pressed,

through the keyhole,

I watched you dress.

Kiss and tell.

(Loose lips sink ships.)

To the love,

I left my conscience pressed

between the pages of the Bible

in the drawer.

What did it ever do for me?

~XO: Fall Out Boy

First Date: Blink 182

My boyfriend just bought a Macbook Pro.

The thing is beautiful. But it also reminded me why I'm a PC.

All I need from a computer is a good word processor and some photo-editing software. I've worked with Macs during my three year stint in high school newspaper. We didn't even use the word processor. I despise AbiWord. MS Word is easy, and I know how to use it extensively, thanks to that computer class in high school. I see no reason to buy a computer that is more expensive by hundreds of dollars just to download PC software onto it.

Now, Photoshop is awesome [complicated as hell, but awesome.] And it works on my PC. My university bookstore has it for $99.99, as opposed to the obscene $299 they want for the download.

Of course, there are Mac users that will argue about the unlikelihood of getting a virus on a Mac. Look, all PC users need is some decent virus protection and to not be an idiot on the internet. I know how to effectively avoid a virus, etc.

Not to mention I grew up with PCs and they are pretty easy for me to use.

Now, Macs have their advantages. I know they have really great software for design, and picture and video editing. I'm not here to argue. You Mac users can enjoy your pretty, complicated machinery. I'm just saying...

My name is Kelsey. And I'm a PC.

Do you like my stupid hair?

Would you guess that I didn't

know what to wear?

I'm just scared of what you think.

You make me nervous so I

really can't eat.

~First Date: Blink 182

P.S. The pic is from my "Adventures in Photoshop Lightroom" collection.

Failure By Design: Brand New

At about 3:26 a.m. I became a defeatist. Yet again.

It took me about 4 hours to realize that I'm going to fail this biology test anyway. You can't learn an entire unit in one night. Not in biology. Government is a different story. Especially when you know it all already. Maybe I should just become a poli sci major.

So now, I'm sitting on my boyfriend's bed, listening to Jay-Z and occasionally glancing at the battery meter in the bottom right corner of my screen. I've creeped people on Facebook, uploaded pictures to Myspace for absolutely no reason, and taken a nice shower. I'm not tired; I took Excedrin earlier. "Well, my headache is gone, but WHY CAN'T I SLEEP?" Oh yeah, because Excedrin has caffeine. Brilliant, Kelsey.

Obviously, I'm tired. But in conjunction with the caffeine, I'm worried. So no sleep.

You see, this is my train of thought: I will fail biology. My parents will kill me. I won't get into a good grad school. I'll lose my scholarship. I'll get fat. I'll never get married. I'll become a crazy cat lady. And I'll die alone without having accomplished one single thing in my adult like that I was proud of. All because of one test.

My rationale, of course, could not be any more clear.

This is a lesson in procrastination,

I kill myself because I'm so frustrated.

Every single second that I put it off

is another lonely night I got to race the clock.

~Failure By Design: Brand New

Also, this little line that always make me LOL:

It's crazy how you can go

from being Joe Blow,

to everybody on your dick,

no homo.

~part of Kanye's part in 'Run This Town.'

Absolutely (Story Of A Girl): Nine Days

Things I need right now:

1. A new job. I hate my job. Every time I step foot in that building, my soul dies a little bit more. I guess I'm lucky it's only Friday, Saturday, Sunday. I'd like to work at a bookstore or in an office though and a few more days a week. I need the money.

2. A better attitude. Like not getting mad and blaming my boyfriend when I'm late for class.

3. Exercise. I'm putting on too much weight for my taste. Plus, my good friend Chris says it will help me feel better in general.

4. Focus. I keep thinking of David Bowie when I'm trying to study for government.

5. More friends on campus. Friends that aren't people I met through my boyfriend. Friends that aren't an hour (or half the country, for that matter) away from me.

Sounds like I have a lot of work to do...

Well, your clothes never wear

as well the next day. And

your hair never falls in quite

the same way. You never

seem to run out of things to say.

~Absolutely (Story Of A Girl): Nine Days

Everything Is Alright: Motion City Soundtrack

At first, I decided I should justify why I'm writing this blog. You know, why I'm spending time telling probably no one about my boring life instead of doing something useful, like studying or reading or cleaning my boyfriend's dorm.

But I've decided I don't really need to justify it. It's a just blog, for goodness sake, not some massive research project.

So instead, I'll start out by telling you a few things about me, since this blog is about me.

I live in Denton, Texas. I'm not a huge fan of Texas-- especially the weather-- but Denton is pretty neat. I don't mind exploring the place and it's not a nightmare to drive around (aside from all those one-way streets). I go to college here; I'm a freshman. A biology major, at the moment.

Lately, I've begun to really hate college. Well, I like the people, I like the freedom, but I mostly feel like I'm wasting my time and my money. College isn't the place for me. (Though I guess a lot of people would disagree. I can't tell you how many times I've heard the phrase, "But you're so smart!" when I express my disinterest in school. Just because someone is "smart" doesn't mean they enjoy school.) Of course, I'm going to stay in school. And suffer through grad school. And hopefully get a decent research job. And write a lot on the side.

My goal is to eventually become a successful author so I can just stay home all day and write. Or maybe I'll just marry a rich guy.

Enough about school and life plans. Things like that freak me out just little bit.

I come from a pretty big family-- 1 sister and 4 brothers. My parents are divorced; I was lucky enough to not remember the ordeal since it happened when I was very young. They've both since remarried. And I have so many cousins that I can't remember all of them.

My friends are the best people in the world. They vary greatly-- I guess I've always prided myself in being able to make friends with anyone, despite my shyness. Some of the are total nerds. Some are complete airheads. But I think they're all hilarious and great to be around.

I'm currently dating this dude. He's pretty random and totally silly. He treats me like a princess though. Even when I'm a total bitch. Which is a lot of the time. I guess that's what really caring about someone means. After a whole bunch of messed up relationships, things with him are pretty good. I'm still struggling with a lot though. I guess that's what this blog is going to help me work out-- gives me a space to really clear my head.

I suppose that's all I really have to tell you guys for now. Stay classy.

PS. I'll leave you some lyrics at the end of each blog. Just whatever I'm listening to or is stuck in my head or just really makes things make sense at the time. I'll make the title and artist the title for the blog.

'Cause I hate the ocean,

theme parks and airplanes,

talking to strangers,

waiting in line.

I'm through with these pills

that make me sit still.

Are you feeling fine?

Yes, I feel just fine.

Everything Is Alright: Motion City Soundtrack